i fight because it's worth it. if it wasn't i would have just ignored the problem.
After therapy yesterday everything felt lighter. Even with just two sessions behind us I feel like we're getting down to the real issues and healing. Doing this therapy has been beyond worth it. Kyle and I have fought, cried, been angry and then sad for the past month but I can honestly say I'm thankful for it. I'm happy that I love him enough to be angry, to feel sad, and to have such strong emotional reactions. I realize if I didn't love him, I probably wouldn't have felt anything. I probably would have just said it was OK, even though in any normal relationship it isn't. I've had the privilege of experiencing pain, that comes from my commitment.
some people will understand that, some people won't.
After Emery we will continue to attend sessions, they are really helping so much and I am so grateful. Tomorrow we have an appointment for Emery and I'm seriously hoping she comes early. I've been ridiculously uncomfortable and in a lot of pain :( Plus I can barely eat since she's taking up all the room in my mid section (You couldn't handle this heartburn!) Fingers crossed we get some good news. I'm looking forward to working again and being around kids :) I'm getting some cute stuff together for their first day of school even though I won't get to be there. Not to mention my Dahlia is gonna be in the two year old class!! :D
I'm anxious to see Dahlia and Emery grow together this year and for the rest of their lives! It's going to be so much fun :)
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