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 Everyone likes reading about other people, love lives, screw ups, and everything else that isn't our own business. Lucky for you I love putting my thought and tough lessons learned out there.

When you move from one city to another, it's like having two different lives. So Cypress, before I met you there was The Woodlands. 


 If you think you're important, most of these people are more important. You think you drive a nice car from mom? To them you are in the mom car. You can't compete with their gossip, parties, or schools. Cypress is The Woodlands jealous little sister.

 Some people know I actually started High School there, not in Cypress. I started my freshman year (my first time around) at College Park [we were the Cavaliers, much classier than Wild Cats].  Oh oh funny side note, at College Park JD was your Sam, yeah and I dated him as well haha. Anyway, like I said I am only going to talk about serious relationships. Spencer & JD were small notes in my life, JD actually led up to our first entry. 
I went to Junior High with my first serious suitor, back when AIM was our dating service and Myspace was just becoming a "thing". Ohh he was still a lost face in a crowd when I met him, ladies and gentlemen meet Brent W., originally a Halloween date ditcher turned Hot homecoming date. He showed up in a brown suit, insane wild curls and a corsage his mom picked up. Oh fourteen how I miss you ;) I wore one of my moms dresses from the 80's, I remember it being a little big, because at fourteen I did not fill out the upper half of this dress if you know what I mean.  I remember dancing and my curls falling from it being so freaking hot in there ughh! Fast forward to the last hour, because that's when it happened people THE KISS unplanned, and amazing. The kiss you dream about having when you watch the sappy love movies and think about growing up. He was that guy for me, my movie kiss. Which led to IHOP and more kissing. 
 Unfortunately I was moving, but Brent never acted like it was going to be a problem. 
I moved in November and did not re enroll in school, hence me meeting all you Cypress Kids in freshman year again (eye roll). Pretty much the best year ever. Brents mom would bring him over multiple times a week, big deal it was a 45 minute drive, which she made twice a day multiple times a week. Literally we did nothing and I loved every minute of it. Brent told me he loved me a million times a day, & he meant it. He bought me roses for those monthly anniversarys that were SO IMPORTANT haha. Our first date had been the renaissance festival he took me to all his favorite shows. His mom made us pose for so many pictures lol It's wild how things change Kerri used to call me her daughter in law, she even asked if I would have a beach wedding! I remember riding alone with her when Brent had school and couldn't join to take me home late at night. Oh our talks! I know things that would make him cringe, haha simpler times. I miss when things were easy.  

Obviously we are not together now, wondering why? 
Aside from doing everything and nothing, we talked about so many things, including his mom. Long story short because his business is not mine to tell, his parents were divorced. Things were in a simple word, messy. I didn't like seeing people push him around, and that's what he told me they did. So I definitely advocated for him to start speaking up for himself. Which made me somewhat unpopular with some of his friends. It's funny how things like that get turned around post relationship. Someone always has to be the "bad guy" in the end. Oh well, doesn't really make much difference. Back to my point, Brent started asking his mom questions, questions she didn't want to answer. Oh and then she found out some other more intimate details and banned him from seeing me. Which didn't work for awhile. He called me me on other peoples phones, my mom let us see eachother. But his mom made things tense and difficult. At some point it just became a fork in the road for me. Go right fight his mom, watch him get punished for loving me and giving me himself. Or let go for both of us. I'm sure we all have that person we've let go not because we want to but because we have to. Before I turned fifteen I was single again, well sort of I dated Skyler meh another small note. Brent and I had actually not been together, when I brought Skyler out. with me. But that did make it official. It wasn't going to be "Brent and Tori" anymore, it took awhile for it to sink in. Especially when we would start and stop talking so often, and when his friends would contact me just to ask if I could be with him again, that he was "broken". I specifically remember spending time with him a couple years later and seeing how he changed, he started talking about how he still thought about me and we talked about how we missed each other luckily I had to go before things went further. After I left I stopped wondering and thinking about the "what's if". I'm glad it happened, and I'm glad it ended. @ 

Rumor Squash: Brent did not start doing drugs with/because of me. He was sober when he was with me, and knew how I felt about him and drugs and cigarettes. I NEVER pushed him to do drugs, quite the opposite actually. Break ups happen, it doesn't mean go to drugs. You hear that kids!


FIRST "LOVE" ALERT. that was him. I put love in quotations because I was so young, and I had deep feelings for him but I don't think I was IN love with him. I just loved him for who he was, atleast for the time I had him with me. 
So does the first love set the standard, or lower it temporarily? Generally you get your heart broken the first time around, but does is make you expect disappointment? I guess it could be different for everyone. How about you?