day 10

Looking back 5 years, I would have been seventeen starting my Junior year of High School. Sometimes I still think about what I could have done differently. 
Was I as good of a person as I could have been? Was I kind? Was I a total bitch? 
 Sadly the answers are not all great, and don't put me in a complimenting light. I have always been a very standoffish person, not easy to be social with. I literally have about 6 people I speak to on a regular basis. (If I talk to you, you're probably one of them) That's really not much different now than it was 5 years ago. I still want to have fun, feel entertained and important. Which is strange because I'm really not important at all. There are so many people in this world, and we all want to feel special. I should probably start trying to help others feel like that, rather than looking for ways to please myself.  

food for thought.