learning

 Well, I got a new job this week. Still waiting on the call to schedule orientation and pick up training shifts though. I went shopping today since there will be a new work dress code, I had forgotten how much dress clothes are. Still feeling the weight of the past couple months on my shoulders, dealing with some feelings that just won't go away. Questions mostly, that will likely go unanswered so I really just need to let go. But have I ever really been that person? The girl who lets go? Doubtful. Lately along with all of the other mess, I'm letting people into my mind that don't belong there anymore. Some I've lost touch with over time along with the ones I thought I locked out. It would be nice to not wonder where they are now and have no sense of curiosity. It would be. 
 I'm feeling pressure from various places, I rarely have a minute to not feel anxious, like I'm forever forgetting something that is very important. That alone could do anyone in for a breakdown, but who has the time.

I just want to get through the next few months, without anymore issues. With my luck it isn't very likely. But, we'll see.