alleviation

 At first it felt like I was falling and nothing but concrete would catch me, but as the days go by and the grip on me loosens I can finally see that I was never falling at all. If anything, I was being kept somewhere I was never meant to be at all. The constant misunderstanding and lack of communication, like talking at walls hoping for some comfort. That won't be my life anymore. Wondering if you will wake up happy or miserable and if you'll blame it on me, I won't have to anymore. Continuous reminders of how you could never stay faithful or honest, soon I won't notice them anymore. Whoever is next, she can learn those for herself. 
There are moments when I almost look back,  but then I remember there is no place for me next to you, there really never was. I was always a few paces behind, and that's how you preferred it. 
  
 I can only be hopeful, that I am going to end up with someone who holds my heart with more honour than you were ever capable of. He will truly appreciate the love that I have to offer, instead of taking it for granted and using it for his own selfish successes. 

A weight is lifting.