Panacea

"Someone I love once gave me a box full of darkness........."

He didn't explain it or wrap it with a bow, and I still don't fully understand the reasoning. I know people tell me I'm strong, but it took them awhile to see that. I was strong before he left this all on my shoulders. Sometimes when I'm exhausted and feeling alone I start feeling angry. I know why we don't get phone calls, emails, or texts. I know why there's no intention of seeing us. It's all in the box. After a few moments I let those feelings slip away, they're doing nothing for us anyway. I have so much love left in my heart, it's strange that I used to think you alone kept that going. It was me. The goal is to meet someone who doesn't need me nor I them, but we choose to be together because we like it better that way. But that's just for me.
The girls are coping in different ways. Emery forgets when we go through prolonged absence,  Dahlia started telling people you're in a better place.  Im assuming it's easier for her to think you're really gone that way  versus you choosing to be. I don't really know what to say.
Most days are normal and happy here, we laugh play and live.  With this box being all that you left. It's gotten to that point where that's okay. Where we're okay.

"Someone I love once gave me a box full of darkness, it took me years to understand that this to is a gift." - Mary Oliver