they come and go

gray to black
these dark days catch me with my guard down.
it's hard to see you.
maybe the universe is whispering
disappear for awhile.
under clean sheets with only my body heat.
low murmur of  tv shows while I look for the light. 
wrapping myself up in the memory of your eyes. 
waiting.
i feel your arms and your breath.
still it's like a two way mirror.
i know you're there but I can't see you.
don't give up on me.
maybe if I want it enough...
lights on.