Running Away

Patience isn't easy and I'm so used to excuses. As humans sometimes we need an idea of where we stand, in life and with other people. That huge fear of investing time in something or someone that never really would work out is almost paralyzing.  Wondering if your goal is the same.  When it's unclear or they just don't know, it kind of leaves you in limbo.  You want this, you can see this,  and you want to work towards it but how do you do that alone? With no indication that things may change. How long does it take to know you love someone or not? How long until you wake up realizing you aren't passionate about a career or life choice. 
I just want a light instead of more tunnel, or maybe just someone who wants to walk with me so we get there together.
I don't desire being an option.  I just want to love and be love by one man. I want to be passionate about life and enjoy it without fear.