peel out

that moment I saw myself in the mirror
and recognised my reflection
seconds before you tore me into
a million pieces.
words leaving behind a poison
and me with no antidote
alone in bed with the gut wrenching pain
of no longer knowing my worth
for me when things come together
it's usually so it can fall apart
the silence alone is unbearable
the feeling of not owning my body is
unreal