Baby Steps

 To me this applies to friends and new people in general, not necessarily romantically. I know my blog is coming off as sad, needy, and repetitive. I can't change how I feel, but it helps to write it all down and have it in one place. Maybe someone in the world is going through something similar and needs to know if what they're feeling is normal.  
 I would be lying if I said love can instantly repair the damage, it won't. It is a factor, but it doesn't make the entire picture. Just because I'm sad, doesn't mean the love has gone away either. Keeping the sadness inside would make it fester into anger, yes I am already angry, but not that kind of angry and I don't want to be. 

Courage does not always roar. 

Sometimes courage is the quiet voice at the end of the day saying,

"I will try again tomorrow." 

(Mary Anne Radmacher) 

I don't think telling it like it is makes me weak, hiding it and pretending nothing happened would. Everyday is challenging right now, and time will help, but it will take effort, failures, and strong will before we can get back to where we were before or to build a new place in general. To me that means support through the ugly, the break downs, the weak moments, but enjoying the moments where it feels right again, holding onto the new memories we make to replace the old. There will be battles that we lose along this journey, but there will be triumphs. They will make the loss worth it, from what we learn and take with us. 

 from this point on we're redefining our places.

we're learning how to walk again.

& reevaluating each others needs.

I love you Kyle Devery.