Therapy starts July 31st, after a doctors appointment for Emery. Four weeks and counting until yet another big change in our lives.
I keep having moments where I wonder if I can handle so much all at once. I've been reading a lot, The Perks of Being a Wallflower. That book has gotten me through some incredibly rough times in my life. It's nice because it means something different depending on who and when it's being read.
I am craving this obstacle to be done with, just suddenly overcome. I know it will take time, a lot of time. 3-5 years according to experts. I can't help but hope they're wrong. My love hasn't faltered though, but the hard days are still consistent. Trust is out of the question, I don't know for how long. Worry is at an all time high.
Love, Hope, Worry, Anger, Sadness, Grief. All present and accounted for, daily. I'm still looking forward to things though. They feel to me almost like check points, like I can see the path of healing and these events will get us there.
-Emery coming home
-Going back to work (though it scares me because of me trust issue)
-Fall holidays Halloween/Thanksgiving
-Christmas
get me there<3
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