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 This past year has changed quite a few things in my life. I couldn't be happier knowing my social circle has been cleansed, people who were never really on my side are gone. People I never knew were on my side have shouted it from the roof tops. People who have been there from the start, they did what they have always done, let me be completely crazy and accepted me for who I am without making it some kind of competition. At midnight I didn't have any resolution, my life goals can't be contained to one year. I did look back on the past twelve months though. Chaos is a word that would easily describe my year, Beautiful highlights and devastating realizations. How lucky is it to have a life like a movie, hah don't we all though? I have definitely shared my trials and tribulations openly for some months now, maybe some people would be embarrassed or ashamed. Honestly I only know how many people read this blog and none of your names. Excluding those that comment obviously. 
 If you are a consistent reader you know I talk a lot, plan things to far in advance, have bad days, have amazing days, and bare my life because I want people to know they are not the only ones that are going through something. Continuing into the new year, I will still do all of these things. Though I am going to close up some subjects, for happy reasons. In parallel to my blog, I have also been focusing on my husband. Who has come so far, and is happy. Which in turn makes me happy. You've read my feelings about events in our life, happy, angry, and sad. I do not feel sorry for myself, I do not feel responsible or guilty or any other similar emotion. If anything I feel sorry for them. To have so much love in your life and to not feel loved must be a terrible thing. I did and do feel loved, I was and still am happy, why feel sorry for myself when I have everything I could ever want in my life? 
 I know that in this new year Kyle does feel love, and probably sees how much he has always had. That is a beautiful outcome of an unexpected storm. I also hope that Amanda feels love in her life now, that was obviously missing before and sees that Kyle never could have filled the void in her heart, because he at the time was not capable of filling his own, for that he needed me. Amanda, sex or any version of is not love and never will be and another persons past doesn't justify the decisions you make in your present. I hope, obviously, you have made these realizations by now because life will make more sense once that is clear for you
Forgive yourself and you are forgiven. With that said, what's past is past. 
  My best friend Brittany is getting married in March to the love of her life Hector and I couldn't be more excited. Planning her bachelorette party and writing my maid of honor speech will be a big part of my next two months! Not to mention trying on pretty dresses! Oh andwe need a girls night, I know you read this so get to planning that day off! I need a yummy drink that'll make me dizzy. 

2013 grocery plan

 In other news we (Brit & I) have been going over our organization and expenses to start our finances and health off right with all these big events coming up. Which took us straight to our  grocery list, duh! I have put together a binder with a grocery list that should be used every time you go grocery shopping! Basically, you go down your list while you shop, and next to each item you write how much you are paying for them. When you check out you record the total when all is said and done. (yes, you will get a receipt in the end but all of this will go in your binder together.) You can use this list and modify it whenever you need to, but you will start seeing your buying trends. ALSO, keep all receipts from "inbetween trips" so you start seeing what you are constantly going back for. & what you consistently buy so you can use coupons and ad matching. & figure out which store is costing you more money. :) 
Refer to the example list - Grocery List


I would keep writing BUT life is calling and it's my husbands birthday, 5.4.3.2.1!