prevaricator

I find myself running out of excuses to make for someone who repeatedly abuses my patience. I don't deserve to be looked at as less than human, because of a decision that was out of my hands. I have nothing to look back on, sorry not sorry. When you're angry because I don't trust your decisions, remember that the bad ones have always come back to me and our children. I could be screaming, yelling, or making a huge scene but instead I ask you, please make a better decision because I don't have to tell our babies anything they'll look back and remember. Every time you scream, when you degrade me and attack my character, it may seem so small to you right now like something that can be let go of, but that will come back to your doorstep. I've put all the effort I can into being accommodating for the sake of our kids and our overall well being but I still have feelings and a limit. I am not a punching bag, and our children are not options. 

point blank. get it together. life doesn't happen when it's convenient for you.

you can only push someone so much before the give up on you all together, and I would never want our girls to feel that kind of pain.